Don't rush through life, take it one day at a time and enjoy every moment you have. Stop thinking that its the end of the world, it's not my darling. Life will always move forward even if you don't want to. You don't need to be reminded by others that you are beautiful. You are unique. So what if you aren't big chested and you haven't grown into your curves yet, one day you will. Focus on your education, friends and lovers will fail you. Don't be so harsh on mom & dad, they are humans too. I know that you have a hard time understanding mom, but right now she needs your I love you's more than "leave me alone." Dad is lonely stay by his side but do not let him drag you into something you don't belong in. Do not meddle into their relationship, just be honest and strong. Stay loyal and faithful like you always have no matter how much it hurts. Do not blame the next person for the previous persons behavior. Friends come and go... and you are a GREAT friend. Your fears.. are just that... Fears. You fear you are going to fail your last quarter in college, guess what you won't. You fear that you won't ever truly be loved for who you are, guess what? You will. You fear that the truth that you hold with hurt those you love, yes it will but it is worth keeping the real ones around. You fear that you will be abandoned, you never were. You'll fear the pain for your physical therapy, trust me it hurts.. but to be able to walk, run and play again is worth it! Dream.... I know your dreams are crazy right now & don't make any sense but a lot of the things you dream...do come true. Don't stick with just Audio Engineering, learn it all! Love hard & let go instead of holding on. There are only a few instances where holding on to someone has paid off for you. But that is because that person gave you something to hold on to. You sisters are troubled, they don't know what they say or do to you. They do not know you are watching, at some point in your life you will feel like the big sister. You will have to watch them make mistakes you wouldn't wish on anyone, but just stay by their side no matter how much you think they hate you. You will have many thoughts about running away, but don't. Enjoy the luxury of being a kid. Don't grow up so fast. Stay true to yourself, to your art & Pray every day.
Love,
Your older wiser self.
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